The central contradiction
The chorus keeps its affectionate descriptions but ends by admitting estrangement. That clash between tender language and changed circumstances places the chorus at the song’s centre. Words of love remain in memory after the relationship changes.
Images in the verses
The verses use intense images of pain, anger and solitude. In part two, emotion turns into writing: an address to the pen and to the speaker’s own words. These are the lyrical narrator’s images, not documentary claims about the songwriter’s life.
Distinct titles, distinct songs
Endi Begona, Begona and Xayr Endi are separate songs, not versions of one track. Find Endi Begona on Davom Etar, Begona on Balandda and Xayr Endi on Bolaligim. Each album’s tracklist is available in the discography.
An editorial reading of the lyrics, not the artist’s account of how the song was created.
Lyrics
Music and lyrics by Shoxrux. Text supplied by the artist; original spelling preserved.
VERSE 1:
Ko'kga boqib urgim kelar faryod,
Haryod olganimda uni degim keladi dod,
Nega hayot barbod,
Nahotki umrbod endi o'zga bir zot,
Etadi shod yorni,
Yahshisi qurol bilan kelgin yuragimga ot mana
Ko'ksimni ochdim,
Sevgim qancha begona nigohlardan olib qochdim,
Birov biror so'z deya ko'rsa, jahlimni sochdim,
Qaysi hato uchun bunday jazolamoqdasan mani,
Mutloq g'olib bildim sani,
Yutug'ing nishonla qani,
Yana qil tantana,
Ahir hamma hammani,
Judo etib tanam
Ezib go'zal sanam,
Ketti tanlab o'zgani,
Tashvishdaman o'ylab uni,
Uni esa yuzlarida tabassum,
Shudir alam qilgani.
CHORUS:
Lali labli, nozik tabli
Lazzat gapli, etdi jabir,
Bilmay sabir, bilmay sabir,
Derdi habibi zorimsan,
Guvoh rabbim san borimsan,
Nechun unda so'zla suluv,
Endi begona yorimsan.
Lali labli, nozik tabli
Lazzat gapli, etdi jabir,
Bilmay sabir, bilmay sabir,
Derdi habibi zorimsan,
Guvoh rabbim san borimsan,
Nechun unda so'zla suluv,
Endi begona yorimsan.
VERSE 2:
Mayliga roziman deyman taqdir-chaqdir
Chaqmog'ing boshimga toshlaringni yog'dir,
Ahir faqat tahr hamda bir hil yashayotgan hayot umrim,
Bo'ldi bilganing qil yetar sabr tugadi endi bari bir chiqdi jahl,
Istaysan ne qilishimni sevgan kishimni,
Iliq mehrla isitgan qahraton sovuq qishimni,
Ishingni qara qilgan zo'rg'a tishimga tishimni,
Qo'yib kuyib chidayman yorim tark etdi og'ushimni,
Bahtga to'lgan qalb ayni damda endi darda g'amda,
Badanda tanda og'riq chunki nimadirla kamda,
Alamda alamim olaman qo'limdagi qalamdan,
Olamda yolg'iz qoldim ayrildim u go'zal sanamdan,
Bas ortiq Qaltis hazil huzullaring qilaverma,
Hazilni tagi zil bag'rimni tilaverma,
Undan ko'ra yahshilik qil ustimdan kulaverma,
Yaram tuzat beshavqat bo'lavermay.
CHORUS:
Lali labli, nozik tabli
Lazzat gapli, etdi jabir,
Bilmay sabir, bilmay sabir,
Derdi habibi zorimsan,
Guvoh rabbim san borimsan,
Nechun unda so'zla suluv,
Endi begona yorimsan.
Lali labli, nozik tabli
Lazzat gapli, etdi jabir,
Bilmay sabir, bilmay sabir,
Derdi habibi zorimsan,
Guvoh rabbim san borimsan,
Nechun unda so'zla suluv,
Endi begona yorimsan.